Chapter 4 He is The First Guy

The reason i put a short story about adit is he made a long story which is I have to make our story in one chapter.

I never thought that he would made one of my chapter in my life.........

My family moved to Singapore in the early of 2007, I’m excited about that, but I never expect much (I mean the love things). I just want to do different things in my life; I knew that there is will be much opportunity.

Who is he?

"His name is Adit. Actually he is my childhood friend when i was about 3 years old, in Nashville.

My father took me and my mom to Nashville, Tennessee, USA, because he is in his master program. In the same things, his father was in his master program too. So here we were, waiting for our daddy studying his master. Actually, i didn't really remember him, i just remember when we were playing in the sand and our moms were talking each other while we were playing. That's all i had in my mind"

The first day i came to school is the first time i saw him. He's cute, tough. He must be the number one in this school, i said to my mind. In fact he wasn't, nothing special with him., i like him actually, but never expect much.

The day when we are in outdoor to that class mid things , he came to me and we were talking much from A to Z., and then we're together.

Everybody said to me that never be with him, he's such a player. But i'm really in love, i like him so badly, he made my day. We went to school together, he waited me in the bus stop which i usually getting off from the bus, and we walked together to school, such a beautiful day. He is the first boy who ever hold my hand warmly, hug me tight, and kissed me gently. I've never in such a happiness like that. After school finished we used to go to somewhere ; KFC, MCD, Ya Kun Kaya Toast, His house or even to Library. He teach me mandarin and english, then i teach him math.

I felt like we're the sweetest couple, we're always together. I didn't stay in dance class just because i just wanna be with him. He always kissed me in my cheek and forehead when i'm about leaving the bus stop.

Everything in my life seems so perfect at that time, until i have to realize that he's gonna move to Jakarta, because his father has to move. The sad things is, he's gonna move to Jakarta after i just came like 4 months. We really like each other at that time, and don't know what we supposed to do. We decided to try a long distance relationship, we could come visit each other. One thing is he told me that his mom was sick, she's got lungs cancer and she has to do the chemo things. I didn't know what's in my mind at the time about LDR things, i just wanna be with him no matter we're far away, i really in love with him. He treats me like a princess. Before he leaving he bought me a bunny doll so i won’t forget him.

Until the day had come, the day he would be far away from me. I feel numb, feel nothing, scared, and so sorrow. I have to pretend that i'm okay, because there are so many people there, my mom and dad was there too. Luckily i have my friend accompany me her name is Cinta ( cinta is one of my Indonesian friend ), she had to skipped her class just to be with me. That night i went to bed earlier and cried all night long, scared that his heart would change.

One thing that i like about him that i learn a lot from this relationship, he teach me english ( we're always use english when we're chatting and texting ), he correct my english. He told me that how lucky i am that my mom is alright, he teach me how to appreciate and love my mom as long as she still exist. He teach me how to enjoy this life, and don't take it too seriously because we just live once. "Just enjoy what you have now, baby" he said to me.

Our relationship isn't that always sweet, we fighted, we were cranky, we mad, i cried, forgiveness and then come a sweet chapter in our life story after a great fight. Once, he asked me to looking another boyfriend to cheer me up when he wasn't around , but i never wanted a new boyfriend.

'I JUST WANNA HIM, GOD.. Why is this so difficult?"

We've been through a hard time, but we made it. Until the time, I was in school break, I went to Jakarta just to visit him. I said to my parents that i need to go to the dentist, salon, my private math teacher and bla bla bla. Meet him isn't that easy, our home such a far away, Jakarta isn't like Singapore. In Singapore, no matter how far our home we could still meet each other, there are subway and busses, and Singapore isn't that large too. I have to wait about 1 week just to meet him, i mean his family condition wasn't good at that time, his mom was getting sicker and worst, and his father was freaking out because of everything. Until that night he texted me, and said that he was hopeless to meet me, because of his family condition were getting worst. I cried that night in my best friend room, Fifi ( fifi is my best friend since elementary/primary school). I mean i was freaking out too, i had come here just because of him, and now he just saying that he was hopeless, what the hell is that. My older cousin picked me up from fifi's house that night and she said that is it okay if we were going to grab a coffee. Ok then, i said. At that time, i just can't talk too much, i was so blue, until my cousin and his boyfriend (now husband) ask me what happened. I almost cried when i told everything, then my cousin's boyfriend told me that he will take me to bintaro to meet him.

Gosh, god sent me a hero, i was really glad and then i called him, and he said yes.

I've got a lot of butterfly in my stomach, i was really nervous, scared, and happy, and it just likes rujak.

Finally we've meet, i hug him like crazy, he was bold at that time and i didn't really care.

And from that day we meet each other easily

From that day we promise that we would have to through this relationship and never say B word

When school break was over i came back to Singapore, we keep texting, chatting, and calling.

Until the February had come, his mother was dying and her respiratory system isn't working properly. She needs something to help her breath, like wrote in chapter 2

“And the sad things in that month were when his mother came here and her condition was not good. Lay down in a weakness, with a pale face, she had no hair anymore, and very thin. I’m about want to crying at that time, but I don’t want to cry in front of his father, so I hold my tears. I just am wondering his feelings at that moment.

I wrote already in chapter when his mom is gone. Well is never been easy when our parents pass away, especially our mom. To be honest I can’t imagine how my life would be if my mom gone. I know his really hurt and never be healing. That’s why he changed, not much but not bit either after his mom died. He is more sensitive, screw up, I really have no idea with him at that time, but I promise to myself that I always be with him no matter what.

When May comes, I’m thinking about sent him a birthday cake, because I wouldn’t be there. I asked my older cousin to sent him a cake, I’ll pay it latter when I come to Jakarta. And you know what? in his birthday, my other older cousin was giving a birth, I have a new niece, I become a aunt that’s funny, it’s a girl and her name is Naura. Naura has a same birthday date with Adit.

In June, there was another school break, and it was so long that I couldn’t stand by staying at home and do nothing. So I decided to take a silly scout camp, that’s just a reason for my parents to allow me going to Jakarta.

I Miss Him So Much

In that month, it was my birthday too at 24th, well unfortunately he couldn’t make it, and he has to do something. So I celebrate with my best friend asa and fifi, and the next day I meet him, as usual we went to cinema and eat, I have to get in the camp the next day, so I’m going to meet him after the scout camp is over.

The scout camp wasn’t really bad at all, it quite fun. In the middle week of scout camp, my friend told me that he saw Adit with another girl in Pim. At first I wasn’t really believe my friend, but I checked by called his house, and it’s true, he is in Pim right now. I freaking out at that time, I text him madly. My friend Della knew that something wrong with me, and he absolutely knew it must be Adit was making a trouble. I’m not really in the mood, but I have to listened the seminar at that time. Adit text me, he said that he really disappointed because I’m not trusted him. He said that he was in Pim not only with that girl, but with his other friend. I didn’t know with whom I’m gonna believe in, my friend who probably tell the truth or my own boyfriend who has a player label in his self.

After that entire problem, I was sick, not really sick but I didn’t feel well. I lose my appetite and absolutely I lose my weight which is I like that. I told him that I was sick and lose my appetite in that camp. He knew that I’m still mad because of that problem, and begging me to eat and convince me that nothing happened between him and that girl. He promise to pick me up after the camp and took me to the idol show. I think he felt guilty and want to pay that. He really pick me up to the camp, and guess what? as usual he still act cold. He didn’t say a single word in car until the half way to my home. Finally I lay in his shoulder and he holds me too, we both knew that we have to forget that thing, he kiss my forehead gently. On my way home, without talking too much I forgive him and forget it all. But I never know whose telling the truth, my friend or him?

On the next day, he let me took a rest because my voice almost fade away. The two next day he took me to his mom grave which is I asked him for a long time. There we were, in his mom grave, he told me what I have to do in that grave, pray. put a flower and water. At that moment I just don’t believe that his mom was gone, even though me and his mom wasn’t really close, but I just felt terribly sorry. After mourn, he took me to his house to meet his younger sister and brother. I’m having a good time with them, his sister Indi asked me to cook spaghetti and called their grandmother to buy some ingredients. I cooked spaghetti when his grandmother came, and everyone in his house like it, he said that my food taste quite same like his mom.

The next two days we went to cinema, and he asked me to come with him to barbeque party in his friend’s house. Actually I don’t feeling it because I really don’t know his friend at all, but he begging to me to come. When we came, he introduce me to his friends, the boy quite warm, but I don’t really like the girls, they seems don’t like me. After about 1 and half hour I asked him to take me home. The last two day in Jakarta, he took me to the idol show, he is the idol crew actually, but at that day he is off, so he could company me. Weirdly he didn’t want just sit down beside me and watching the show, he wants to walk around the show, but I asked him to just sit down, and again he act cold all night because he didn’t like it. And as usual he said sorry. Too many sorry I thought.

The school break was over, and I came back to my real life. As usual we just text, chat and call each other. Nothing happened in past 3 months, just like usual couple fight and then made it. There is a huge problem at that time, because of snake, the snake that never even exists. One day in the afternoon, we chat like usual, and he told me that he’s planning to having a snake as a pet. I don’t like snake at all, I hate snake and now he’s planning to having it. I really mad at him until I said something to him that makes him really hurt. He’s really hurt, he didn’t talk to me for over 1 month. Until he realizes that I’m right, I have to telling him when he did bad things, and we made it again for a thousand times.

The next month, when he treat me sweetly, when we were just ok. Something happened, a girl came to me in facebook, and she said that she is Adit’s girlfriend. I become freaking out anymore, I’m exhausted of his game, his back up girl, and his behavior. That girl also text me and sent me messages in facebook to discuss all those things, but I don’t want to, I’d prefer to ignore her, and don’t want to hurt anymore.

As usual I NEVER knew the truth about that girl, who is she?

After he said sorry (again) to me and I forgive him (again), I forget all those behind, I don’t want to talk about it. I have a big exam in the next month, so I don’t want every single things bother me, I prefer pretending that everything is alright. At that month I came to Jakarta to taking care of my college things, and we meet, he picked me up at the airport and meets my mom too.

The final exam was finished, and we’re just like planning what we are going to do when I come to Jakarta, I’m planning that I going to stay in Jakarta about 1 month to take a driving lesson and communication lesson. One night, suddenly he told me something important. He’s going to run away from his home, he’s going to leave his family, he couldn’t stand anymore with his home condition. I have no idea what in his mind, I told him like a thousand times that he still need his family to live on. He is just a stubborn at that time, I don’t know what happened to him. He said to me that I would never meet him anymore because tomorrow he’s going to run away. He’s just trying to take my attention at that time, he’s not really run away and probably he has a family crisis at that time.

The tomorrow night, suddenly he show up in Msn and asking what is his reward for not being run away from home. I said that he got his precious family and me.

He promises to me that he will pick me up at the airport when I’m coming to Jakarta. That night before I leave Singapore, he calls me and said that his driver was not there, so probably his father and he will pick me up. I don’t know what I’m going to do, I want him to picking me up, but I also shame on his father. The next day before my plane were taking off, I called him and he said that his father, sister, and brother will also picking me up. Gosh, his whole family is going to pick me up at the airport, I’m really pleased to hear that. I love he and his family more.

I’m having a good time at Jakarta, I’m taking a driving and communication lesson. I’m also hanging around with him a lot, but we also fight two times at that time. First we fight about him, I mad at him because he’s not register at the college yet. He really doesn’t care about his school stuff, I mean his college. Second, we fight about his secret job. He was joining in multi level marketing, actually I don’t really care wether he’s joining that stuff or not, I just don’t like it when he’s keeping secret behind me. I spend the rest of my holiday with him. One day when his sister birthday and planning to celebrate it, I came to his house and helping his sister to pick her outfit. In her sister birthday party we escape from the party to walk and talk each other, I never tought that that night is the last time I’d see him.

The next day, I leave Jakarta because I had to attend my graduation. Since our last meeting, he never text, call, or chat me, except when my birthday, he’s just saying happy birthday to me. One month pass, he never call me, I don’t know why until I’m freakin out and asking his sister to told him that I worried about him.

And finally he sent me an email like this,

From Aditya Pradana
18 Juli 2009

Hey hun.
I really need to take a break with you until im settled in university
I hope u understand.
I just cleared my problem with fam.
I hope u get this message, just mail me
Love You.
Mmmuaacch XOXO

I used to take a break with him, I didn’t mind about that. As he never text me, I keep myself busy so I won’t be sad about that break. The next month I moved to Bandung because my college orientation started in a week, my family also came to Jakarta to accompany me. When I was in cinema to watch Up, he text me in randomly number and said,

“We’re broke up, I still love you, but I can’t stand with this long distance relationship anymore. I’m sorry, I love you”

I could never tell you guys what was like my feeling at that time, it broken, stab, he broke my heart into a million pieces. I really quite in front of my family, I have to pretend that nothing happen, I can’t say to my family that he dumped me, I can’t cry in front of them. He’s picking the wrong time. At night I’m crying like crazy, I called my close friend Herdy, I can’t even talk to him, I’m crying on phone. Herdy absolutely have no idea what word he’s going to say to me, and how to cheer me up. I even sent his grandmother an email about our relationship is over. I don’t really like the way he broke me, why didn’t he call me, at least it’s a bit gentle.

I would never forget him easily, we’ve been together for over two years. Even though he dumped and broke me, he made my day in two years, I never hate him. He always came to my mind and my dream after months had pass over. He never contacts me, but I’m still in contact with his sister, brother and grandmother now. I don’t know why this is all happening, but I always knew that god set this up with a purpose.